A lonely night n im alone.
I look up at the sky n see the moon so bright.
The brightness has a different sheen....thanks to the pretty stars to keep his company.
The wind so warm and blissful has a different fragrance... the scent of all the lovely flowers he met on his way here.
I think again about her bright smile, the twinkle in her eyes, her touch, her scent and something stirs in me... an emotion i have been trying to suppress has broken loose again...she is no longer in my life.
I could feel her presence everywhere around me only drawing her closer to me in my mind as she took a step away with every passing second. Every memory of hers seem to take me only deeper into the quagmire of pain making it impossible to look beyond the darkness.
The company I needed doesnt want me anymore and the company I never expected doesnt leave me anymore.
Loneliness never proved to be a good friend of mine though it never left me alone even in a crowd since she left me. It never spared me the blues of "Missing her" ever.
The night so young, so dark, so secretive holding many dark secrets in its bosom wrapped around me like a blanket belonging to me yet invisible.
Its only loneliness to get me through this night and the night alone to keep my company through this loneliness

Introspection

People have goals
People have missions
why am I the one wandering about knowing not where my fate is leading me to....

Im like a dry leaf without any destination
flying along with the wind or rather carried away by the fate....know not where to

People take pride in what they achieve
people take pride in who they are
People strive hard to carve out a position in this society full of achievers and believers
Can I ever be one of those....those who know what they want
those who know how to get what they want

Am I an achiever or a failure??Im not an achiever bcoz what I have is not what I dreamed of
Im not a failure bcoz I have what I wanted....or what everyone else wanted for me

Is this reality or a delusion that im living in?Can I ever find satisfaction in this delusional reality Im living in??

I know not anymore

Wings to fly
Horizons to Explore
Peace to find
Where to look
I know not anymore

Words to speak
Feelings to express
Hearts to pour out
How to say
I know not anymore

I know not anymore
Where to start
How to end
What to want
What I want
I know not anymore

the egg hatched
the eaglet cried
his mother always there right next to him to hold him,protect him n feed him
the vision so limited
he, his mother and the comforts of his nest...the world seemed so small

time passed by
the wings grew
the horizon called
time has come to take the flight
away from the familiarity ....towards the unknown
to explore the unknown lands
to see the world through his own eyes
to reach great heights
to be on the top
the first flight towards the unknown........to make it his own

Sea

I could feel the salt on my lips...
the taste of the sea....
the taste of his kiss, rushing towards me like a lover
filled with passion asking me to come away with him
washing away the sand under my feet and pulling me towards him.
A pause from my side,
a moment of indecision is enough to break his heart and to consider me unfaithful.
Even today when i go to see him he rushes towards me
not out of passion but just to see how im without him...
to see if i still feel for him.... to see if i still miss him...to see if i still love him...
to see if i shed a tear in his name n go away taking the tear with him n making it a part of him

Eye for an Eye

Eye for an eye says the law here
your tears dont wash away your crime here
crime is rather a big word to use as all you did was a minor act...
a minor act not intentional,which was purely accidental
even before you gave a second thought to your actions
even before you realised the folly you made
the crime is committed
the big bad world is all set to pass the judgement on the "crime" you committed
whether intentional or foolish
you have a price to pay a price so high a price so dear it might cost you your life but your crime will not be forgiven unless you are made to suffer
unless your blood is spilled out in the form of your tears
an act so silly an act so foolish an act so innocent
has been written down for ever as a crime so huge a blunder never to be committed...never ever in scarlet blood oozing from the wounds cut through your skin by the lashes of the whip sported by the protector of law in this big bad world
you may beg and plead for mercy but the law so keen on punishing you so keen on making you straight puts it on a deaf ear.....defended by the cheers of its supporters snarling at you for being so innocent, for not being one of them filling your heart with the venom that poisoned their souls
One day these wounds might heal leaving just the scars to sink into your skin and heart....
the world might forget its devilry only filling you with contempt....
somewhere around the corner another foolish act is committed, another innocent fool is at the mercy of the world....
will you stand up for him or cheer heartlessly at the misery your fellow fool is put through??
will your suffering make you wise or the venom sunk deep into your soul makes you think otherwise
will you choose to stand against the big bad world or are you the big bad world??

Fairy Tales

"Once upon a time....." thus begins a fairytale and ends with the most expected and most loved statement "...and they lived happily ever after!:-)"
Sounds happy...sounds satisfactory.
I was just wondering how would my story sound???
"Once upon a time there lived a li'l gal with her parents in a small cottage on the edge of the woods....blah! bhah!! blah!!!"
This definitely wont be how my story would be..
1. Bcoz it was never so simple and sweet as a fairy tale
2. There was never a "happily ever after" end.....not till date
Fairy tales fascinated me a lot in my childhood. Infact they did have an influence on my young mind. All those beautiful castles, Prince Charmings and fire breathing dragons would come alive in my imagination every now and then and felt more realistic than this "nothing's happening" world around me
From the time where the fairy tales were as real as reality to "wish-they-come-true" and to finally today's "I have grown out of them" my thinking has evolved along with time. I no longer believe in the beautiful Princesses trapped in castles and the handsome Princes and their noble steads but I never gave up on the morals which formed their base...which they always showcased.
The choice of being good or evil is always present at every step we take. It is our choices that make us either evil and take us down with every passing day or good and help us evovle to be better and spread the goodness in us across this world. It is always the triumph of good over evil and it is good that always prevails are the lessons i took to heart and never stopped believing in.
Though the definition of being good keeps changing every now n then Im true to myself n never faltered from these morals and will never stop believing or hoping for my perfect "happily ever after":-)