IDentity Crisis.... I was introduced to this term by a friend of mine who was going through it. (Though it took me a while to figure out what he exactly meant by that) It happens when one feels what they are is not what they wanted for themselves. There is a clash between what they r deep down inside and what they appear to be to the world outside…. hmmmmm. This was a few months ago. I did some serious thinking about it then. Today as I was heading home after giving an exam (I struggled to get through this one for 4days n 4 nights and I cleared with flying colors. My hard work did really pay off...:D)the term Id crisis resurfaced again in my heavy head(hangover due to lack of sleep). What triggered this reappearance is the question the lady next to me asked..."Are you a Keralite?" I smiled at her even without realizing it n said "No...Im an Andhrite" People around me always have questions about where I'm basically from....curiosity. Though the intention behind the question is to know where my roots are the question itself varies from "where are you basically from?" "Are you a Keralite?" "Are you a Bangalorean?" to "Are you a Kannadiga/Tamilian/North Indian/...???" ....etc...etc (anything n everything other than an Andhrite) well...my answer never seemed to satisfy them. Some people just laugh at their guess being proved very wrong while some take it to heart that they were not even close to the fact but there r a few others who are brave enough to show their disappointment or rather disapproval openly saying "are YOU an Andhrite??" filled with shock instead of a friendly "Are you an Andhrite??" with a surprised tone. One experience really stands out as all other experiences look minuscule compared to this one... a person who heard me talking in Telugu came to me n asked where I learnt to speak such good Telugu. When I told him that it is my mother tongue he was dumbstruck n the expression written on his face was strong enough to make me think if I did anything wrong by being born as an Andhrite.
Deep down inside Im a Telugite born n brought up in Andhra but to the outside world I seem to be multi faceted...a Keralite, a Tamilian, a Kannadiga, a Banglorean, a North Indian but never an Andhrite..... if this is not an ID crisis then what else is???