a throbbing pain pricking at some sensitive corner of my mind,

a sickening feeling never leaves me alone...never in peace,

a slow poison not strong enough to kill but to leave me struggling for my life,

a dull ache pushing me more n more towards insanity...questioning my sanity,

a truth im scared to accept

a past im unable to escape

why doesnt the pain leave me or die away than letting me bleed to death...a slow painful death sapping out all the happiness n leaving me to die in misery drowned in my own sorrow????

If to end is the only end to it..then why not quickly...a sharp pain n its all gone forever, a single blow to silence the moan once n for all??

why making me relive those moments that robbed my happiness condemning me to die every living second and to live the death again n again??