One day not very long time ago when i was a kid who only knew black and white n never knew the existence of grey, had a fight with my then best friend over a doll. We disagreed with each other n then decided we cant be friends any more. Hence we were enemies n we walked away. We avoided each other for a few days...atleast that is what each one wanted the other to believe. We were only trying to get each other's attention. days passed...though we acted like we were having the best time ever...we missed each other more than ever but waited patiently for the other one to approach first. She was the one who disagreed first, wasn’t she? So why should I be the one to go to her first? After all im having fun here n she is the one who is bored n longing to play with me again.....hmmmm.....im bored too....but who cares as long as its not obvious to her. As soon as she comes to me i will forgive her n will start playing with her again....daadidaadidaaa. Look! She is coming this way. I bet she finally realized her mistake. Im not looking at her. No..no..i cant let her know im waiting for her. Here she comes. She is looking at me. I cant stop smiling. She opened her mouth to say but I was too excited to even wait for her to apologizes "it’s ok...I understand you r sorry for fighting with me. I forgive you" said I with the biggest ever grin dancing on my face. She stared at me n said "hey! I came here only to tell you that your mum is looking for u. why should I say sorry? You are the one who said we are not friends anymore. We are enemies. But if u want to play with me again...well....ok...may b I can consider it!"
"Why would I apologize to u?"
"I will never say sorry to u"
"Fine!"
"Fine!!"
"You better give me back all my dolls"
"And you give back my building blocks"
"You still have my....."
"How abt my......."
When we were busy sorting out the things we owned and owed our mothers arrived. Told us to stop bickering and said its time for truce. Made us shake our hands n well sorted out the enmity between us. We were friends again...best friends!
This my friend is the tale of a fight over a doll between me n my then best friend not very long time ago but very far away from today's thoughts.

Childhood... so simple n so alive.
Everything that wasn’t white was black then and everyone who wasn’t a friend was an enemy
we either liked it or we didn’t
No false pretences no lies
No bitching no back biting
Either a yes or a no....
Just fair n square....
Just black n white....

I donno when the grey matter seeped into our lifes...
Everything that wasn’t white could b grey...not just black
Everyone who wasn’t a friend could b an acquaintance or just a nobody....not even worth being an enemy
Apart from yes or no there are may be, could be, possibly be, not exactly.....the list goes on
Hypocrisy in the name of diplomacy has become the new way of life
Life has become complex and the complexity only seems to be growing day after day
Life has turned into just shades of grey.....

Bangalore is the place with the maddest weather on earth says I. Its raining cats n dogs here. I wont be surprised if it rains elephants one fine day. I never liked rainy seasons much but never actually hated them. but honestly after living in this place i started detesting them. I know there are places where it rains all year long but i never lived there. Every evening as the clock strikes 5 all the dark n heavy clouds come out of their hiding getting ready for a heavy downpour. Every day! its the same story!! y don’t these rains take a break or atleast the weekends off rather than ruining them??? But no.... y would they? Wont they ever get tired of showering so much??

Rain rain go away
come again some other day
Li'l Harry wants to play
Rain rain go away

Not all agree with me though. there r loads who loooove these bloody rains as they find them so romantic !huh!!being drenched in this acidic rains n chilled to the bone is not something that ever appealed to me esp the sneeze train follow up and struggling to get the mud stains off my clothes....well that explains things fairly well.
Days look so gloomy n sad n dull n...nothing good when the clouds are hovering around. i would prefer my days bright n sunny..I guess i derive my energy from the sun. I wont be surprised if the scientists come up with research results which classify people into different types depending on whether they derive (per me) their energy from sun or moon or rain....whatever the other things might be. Cloudy/rainy days make me dull most of the times. never feel like getting out of bed. mind you...not bcoz im sleepy but just lazy. They make me thoughtful at times... thoughtful about my past, my present, n well at times abt my future... about what happened, what could have happened, whats happening and what can/might happen n i hate these thoughtfulness spell as the complete focus shifts onto me. Im the one in spotlight and everyone n everything else is plunged into darkness. its me n only me I can think of n i hate it! I have committed mistakes n blunders in my past. the amount of damage caused has caste a very long shadow that seem to creep into my present at times and I cant stop thinking about them n cant stop feeling low that only doubles up the gloom already in picture. I have learnt my lessons from my past experiences n I learnt them in the painful way so as never to forget them n never to repeat them but i cant help wondering what new fiascoes are in store for me..sounds like fun...not!!!I know this is the way of life...learning from our mistakes, making sure never to repeat them n ofcourse to commit new ones( thats the only way i would learn my lessons, the hardest way) n though I crib n cry about it I have no other go but to accept it just as i finally resign to an everlasting spell of dull n gloomy n self retrospective painful days...I really really hate rainy seasons!!