Thursday, December 4, 2008

a country far away was attacked and civilization destroyed
i took solace in the fact that it was not my country
a city was burned down to ashes
i grieved for the sufferers
it was not my city....it gave me peace
a big house was plundered around the corner
i pitied the looted
not my house....i was comforted

the comfort didnt last long nor did the peace
the foraying continued and so did the suffering
faith perished... no one was trusted
fear took different shapes n forms 
and was seen here n there...everywhere

life took a different meaning
to get through a day untouched became the only driving motive
to see the loved ones live through the night the only happiness
day came...day gone
nothing changed except for the count of the empty houses
silence ruled over the place except for the sound of lifeless feet dragged away
no one questioned the silence...it was too still to be broken
city of the living dead....it turned into
time passed by...

one day the silence was shattered by a cry...one loud cry of pain
a child was in the open... the child was hurt
not my child my heart thrummed
the silence spread over again 
except for a pair of running feet outside my door
the mother of the child i thought
i was bracing myself for more pain in the air
how badly the child was hurt...i didnt dare to step out
time ticked away slowly...second after second
what i heard next was not something i was prepared for
the sound of laughter interrupted my thoughts
it was real....it was alive
the child was safe the mother was happy
her happiness at that moment was boundless
n made me restless....i wanted to touch it 
i deliberated...but the pure energy tugged at my heart
i stepped out measuring my steps
there at the corner i saw the mother 
holding her child to her heart celebrating the life
i walked to her...she looked at me
a smile was dancing on her almost dead face
weekly and shyly i returned her smile
this was a long forgotten gesture...
i realised i was not alone..there were other shy faces around
we looked at each other...recognition in our eyes 
we held each other...warmth spreading in our hearts
slowly the darkness fell... but we stood still
we had each other...one and another
we are not alone...

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

One expectation
This is what I would do anyway
I can do it


another expectation
hmmm...this is not what I want to do exactly but I guess I can do this
just a li'l out of way...it wont hurt


yet another expectation
I donno if I want to do this
this is not what I want
but will it hurt to do this for their sake?
they will b happy if I do this...I know
its not much...I wont regret this
I can do it this time


one more expectation
Hell!this is not something I would ever do...never!
How could they ever expect such a thing out of me??
I cant...even if I can I dont want to
but it would break their heart if I dont
can I live with that guilt for the rest of my life?
will it hurt to do this??
Yes...dearly but I can live with that...
I can do it this time...one last time